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Prayer Journaling

“When life makes sense, it becomes a journey, a spiritual adventure.  Writing down the adventure as it happens gives us a feel for our place in the story God is weaving in our lives.  Journaling helps us to become aware of the journey.”  Journaling is not one of my strengths or common practices, but I recognize the benefit of processing life from time to time through journaling as Paul Miller describes in the quote above.

What was new to me in this chapter, though, was Paul Miller’s insight that prayer journaling provides a means to ‘become aware of self on the journey.’  It is an avenue to self-awareness. 

Here’s how he puts it: “The modern quest for self-fulfillment is a secularized version of Christianity’s discovery of the self.  Without the Shepherd guiding us to see our true selves in relationship to him, we can lose our way and become obsessed with self. Instead of seeing our bent toward evil, we can become increasingly touchy, supersensitive to self but insensitive to others.  We no longer see ourselves clearly.  The spiritual pilgrimage is the opposite.  The discovery of self in relationship to God leads to a lifestyle of repentance.”  So, a prayer journal could serve as an opportunity not just to process life, but to become more aware of how I am interacting with and ‘being received’ by others.

Two questions can guide this process:

  • “How am I doing?  What is coming at me?  Am I happy, sad, thankful, discouraged, angry, frustrated?”
  • “What is God saying to me?  What does the Word say to me?”

 Writing down our reflections to these questions can help better discern what God is teaching us. 

What’s been your experience with ‘prayer journaling’?

Much Joy

“Indeed, since much joy is the true fruit of the gospel of Christ, the angel calls this gospel “good tidings of great joy, that shall be to all people.””

Joy is that elusive quality of the Christian journey.  We can find ourselves often tied to an emotion-al roller coaster due to the circumstances in life and ministry.  Something in this comment though, from Jonathan Edwards, points to a deeper, a more settled response of our heart.

I know (we know) that joy is the fruit produced by the work on the Spirit in our lives: “The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace …” I know (we know) that joy flows out of our experience with the Lord: “The joy of the Lord is my strength.”  Remember singing that little chorus: “I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy way down in the depths of my heart”?

So, I can talk about ‘joy’, but what I’m having trouble grabbing a hold of is this notion of ‘much joy’.  Somehow this takes the discussion to a whole new level.  Something needs to go deeper.  It is probably the Gospel in its fullness.  My heart needs to ‘feel’, to experience God’s work on my behalf.  I need to bask anew in the ‘great’ sacrifice, the ‘deep’ love of God the Son.  Centering my heart on that good news, on the Lamb of God will cause a fruit of ‘much joy’ to overflow in my heart and life.

Listening to God

As I re-read Paul Miller’s chapter on, “Listening to God”, I was struck by the common themes that I had also heard during the Central Asia & CH Area Conference on prayer and discernment.  I won’t try to summarize three packed days of reflecting on this topic, but I wanted to come back to one element that stood out both in the book and the conference, and that is the need to cultivate a listening heart.  Let me quote from A Praying Life:

 

“Listening is just one of the things that happens in the course of my soul connecting with God.  You can’t listen to God if you are isolated from a life of surrender that draws you into his story for your life.  And it must be a gospel story. By that I mean your dying, your weakness is what you bring to the table.  God brings to the table his grace, his resurrection … When referring to communication with God, Scriptures assumes that I know what God is saying.  The problem isn’t the activity of listening, but my listening heart.  Am I attentive to God? Is my heart soft and teachable? Am I remembering his ways, his commands?  Psalm 25:15 says, “My eyes are ever toward the Lord.”  The means of communication is secondary to a surrendered heart.  Our responsibility is to cultivate a listening heart in the midst of the noise from our own hearts and from the world, not to mention the Devil.”  (247)

 

It’s not just ‘listening’ that is fundamental, but cultivating a heart that is tender towards the Spirit’s voice.  Miller says that keeping the Word and the Spirit active together in my life happens as I “saturate my life with the Word, so as to give the Spirit a vocabulary to personalize the Word to me.”

 

Cultivating such a listening heart is the journey that we are on.

 

[For more input on this topic, you might want to read, The Voice of Jesus, by Gordon Smith, IVP Press.  Gordon spoke at the recent Central Asia & CH conference)

Counting Sheep

Whenever one talks about assessment, it evokes a response.  Not many of us enjoy being assessed or evaluated.  There is a certain fear of “not measuring up” that can rise up in our hearts when we are asked to take a closer look at our activities and work.  Yet, a good assessment process can provide us with much needed input for further development and growth.

Any assessment, though, “requires a shared definition of mission”.  We as a community have this shared definition in our global vision to see “innovative teams multiplying disciples and communities of believers, bringing the Gospel within reach of lost people everywhere we go.” We recognize that any assessment of our work and ministry in light of our vision must take into consideration elements of ‘quality’ and ‘quantity’.   We do not want to see more disciples just so we can add “more sheep to our numbers.”   We long to see disciples who multiply themselves in others.  We are looking for quality, for depth, and for growth.  Nevertheless, we are looking for and praying for a ‘number’ of disciples.

A good assessment process would seek input in at least three ways.  One, it would ask for feedback from the larger community.  Input from other workers and partners (both expat and national) would give a fuller picture of how the work has progressed.  Second, it would take a ‘long view’ of the work.  It would look at how the work is helping establish reproducible and sustainable growth in people’s lives, and in the life of the community of believers.  Finally, it would listen for stories; stories of what God has been doing in us and through us as workers.  These stories would frame the work in the larger context of the mission and vision to which God has called us.

‘Counting sheep’ is a lot more than numbers.

Still Not Satisfied

I agree that there are a certain number of false dichotomies such as being versus doing, people oriented versus task oriented, and faithfulness versus fruitfulness.  It is not either/or, but both/and.

I agree that it is God who “brings the increase”, who chooses to work in us and through us in order that fruit may come from our efforts for His glory; that we are not called to measure the value of our work simply by the fruit that comes or does not come from our efforts.

But I am still not satisfied with our answer as to how to “assess” the ministry, the work to which God has called us.  I am not satisfied because the Bible repeatedly encourages us to “make further progress” in our faith; to “bear fruit that lasts”; and “to teach faithful people who will be able to teach others also”. 

In other words, the Bible implies that as stewards of the resources God has entrusted to us, we will “enter wholeheartedly into our work, to take risks, to try new strategies.”  We will also allow ourselves to be accountable as a means to constructively evaluate how we can use our gifts best for God’s work.

If we were to truly “one another” one another (i.e. be accountable to another), then we would be, or should be willing to sit down with another and ask:

(1)   What is my (and your) assessment of my recent ministry activity?  Have I worked as hard as I could?  Did I follow a healthy or poor strategy?  Is there further training that I need?  Am I in the best place or role for fully using my particular strengths and gifts?

(2)   What is my (and your assessment) of my recent ministry activity?  Has my ministry stirred up a competitive spirit in my heart, a prideful and self reliant spirit?  Have I faithfully and honestly reported what has happened in my ministry?  Have I neglected my own life and journey with Jesus?

We should ‘think on these things’.

Prayer Work(s)

I started trying to write out some ‘prayer cards’, like those that we read about last week in Paul Miller’s book, A Praying Life.  It’s not an easy task.  But then I read his short chapter on “Prayer Work” and realized what Paul is talking about is not a task, but a journey; a process in which I am intimately involved with the Father, and with others:

“My prayer for Bob had a familiar threefold pattern.  First, I wrote the prayer down.  Then I watched for God to work while I prayed.  Finally God provided an opportunity where I “worked” the prayer request. By worked I mean that God involved me in my own prayers, often in a physical and humbling way.” (236)

In reality, God is working to change me through my work in praying for others.  As Paul Miller writes later, “If Satan’s basic game plan is pride, seeking to draw us into his life of arrogance, then God’s basic game plan is humility, drawing us into the life of His Son.” (238)

How has this been your experience in your journey in prayer?